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  Bernard gives me all the credit, and at last, I can see my esteem rising slightly in their eyes. Maybe I’m a contender after all.

  “Where’d you learn to play chess?” he asks, fixing us another round of drinks from a wicker cart in the corner.

  “I’ve always played. My father taught me.”

  Bernard regards me, bemused. “You’ve just made me realize I don’t know a thing about you.”

  “That’s because you forgot to ask,” I say playfully, my equilibrium restored. I look around the room. “Don’t any of these people ever go to bed?”

  “Are you tired?”

  “I was thinking—”

  “Plenty of time for that later,” he says, brushing the back of my hair with his lips.

  “You two lovebirds.” Teensie waves from the couch. “Come over here and join the discussion.”

  I sigh. Bernard may be willing to call it an evening, but Teensie is determined to keep us downstairs.

  I endure another hour of political discussions. Finally, Peter’s eyes close, and when he falls asleep in his chair, Teensie murmurs that perhaps we should all go to bed.

  I give Bernard a meaningful look and scurry to my room. Now that the moment has arrived, I’m shaking with fear. My body trembles in anticipation. What will it be like? Will I scream? And what if there’s blood?

  I slip on my negligee and brush my hair a hundred times. When thirty minutes have passed and the house is quiet, I slip out, creep across the living room, and up the other set of stairs, which leads to Bernard’s room. It’s at the end of a long hall, located conveniently next to Teensie and Peter, but, like all the rooms in the new wing, it has its own en suite bathroom.

  En suite. My, what a lot of things I’ve learned this weekend. I giggle as I turn the knob on Bernard’s door.

  He’s in bed, reading. Under the soft light of the lamp, he looks sleek and mysterious, like something out of a Victorian novel. He puts his finger to his lips as he slides back the covers. I fall silently into his arms, close my eyes, and hope for the best.

  He turns off the light and rearranges himself under the sheets. “Good night, kitten.”

  I sit up, perplexed. “Good night?”

  I lean over and turn on the light.

  He grabs my hand. “What are you doing?”

  “You want to sleep?”

  “Don’t you?”

  I pout. “I thought we could—”

  He smiles. “Here?”

  “Why not?”

  He turns off the light. “It’s rude.”

  I turn it back on. “Rude?”

  “Teensie and Peter are in the next room.” He turns off the light again.

  “So?” I say in the dark.

  “I don’t want them to hear us. It might make them . . . uncomfortable.”

  I frown in the darkness, my arms crossed over my chest. “Don’t you think it’s time Teensie got over the fact that you’ve moved on? From her and Margie?”

  “Oh, Carrie.” He sighs.

  “I’m serious. Teensie needs to accept that you’re seeing other people now. That you’re seeing me—”

  “Yes, she does,” he says softly. “But we don’t need to rub it in her face.”

  “I think we do,” I reply.

  “Let’s go to sleep. We’ll figure it out in the morning.”

  This is my cue to flounce out of the room in anger. But I figure I’ve done enough flouncing for the evening. Instead, I lie silently, mulling over every scene, every conversation, fighting back tears and the gnawing realization that somehow, I haven’t necessarily managed to come out on top this weekend, after all.

  Chapter Thirty-Three

  “I’m so glad you came to see me,” Bobby proclaims as he opens the door. “This is a very nice surprise. Yes, a very nice surprise,” he patters on, taking my arm.

  I shift my bag from one side to the other. “It’s really not a surprise, Bobby. I called you, remember?”

  “Oh, but it’s always a surprise to see a friend, don’t you think? Especially when the friend is so attractive.”

  “Well,” I say, frowning, wondering what this has to do with my play.

  Bernard and I returned to the city late Sunday afternoon, hitching a ride with Teensie and Peter in the old Mercedes. Teensie drove, while Bernard and Peter talked about sports and I sat quietly, determined to be on my best behavior. Which wasn’t difficult, as I didn’t have much to say anyway. I kept wondering if Bernard and I stayed together, if this was what our life would be. Weekends with Teensie and Peter. I didn’t think I could take it. I wanted Bernard, but not his friends.

  I went back to Samantha’s, vowing to get my life in order, which included calling Bobby and scheduling an appointment to discuss the reading. Unfortunately, Bobby doesn’t seem to be taking it as seriously as I am.

  “Let me show you around the space,” he says now, with irritating insistence, especially as I saw the space when I was at his party. That night feels like ages ago, an uncomfortable reminder that while time is racing on, my own time may be running out.

  The reading may be my last chance to establish a toehold in New York. A firm grip on the rock of Manhattan from which I cannot be removed.

  “We’ll set up chairs here.” Bobby indicates the gallery space. “And we’ll serve cocktails. Get the audience liquored up. Should we have white wine or vodka or both?”

  “Oh, both,” I murmur.

  “And are you planning on having real actors? Or will it just be a reading?”

  “I think maybe just a reading. For now,” I say, envisioning the bright lights of Broadway. “I’m planning to read the whole play myself.” After the class reading with Capote, it seemed easier not to get anyone else involved.

  “Better that way, yes?” Bobby nods. His nodding—his unbridled enthusiasm—is starting to get to me. “We should have some champagne. To celebrate.”

  “It’s barely noon,” I object.

  “Don’t tell me you’re one of those time Nazis,” he intones, urging me down a short hallway that leads to his living quarters. I follow him uncertainly, a warning bell chiming in my head. “Artists can’t live like other people. Schedules and all that—kills the creativity, don’t you think?” he asks.

  “I guess so.” I sigh, wishing I could escape. But Bobby’s doing me an enormous favor, staging a reading of my play in his space. And with this thought I accept a glass of champagne.

  “Let me show you around the rest of the place.”

  “Honestly, Bobby,” I say in frustration. “You don’t have to.”

  “I want to! I’ve cleared my whole afternoon for you.”

  “But why?”

  “I thought we might want to get to know each other better.”

  Oh for goodness’ sake. He can’t possibly be trying to seduce me. It’s too ridiculous. For one thing, he’s shorter than I am. And he has jowls, meaning he must be over fifty years old. And he’s gay. Isn’t he?

  “This is my bedroom,” he says, with a flourish. The decor is minimalist and the room is spotless, so I imagine he has a maid to pick up after him.

  He plunks himself on the edge of the neatly made bed and takes a sip of champagne, patting the spot next to him.

  “Bobby,” I say firmly. “I really should go.” In demonstration of my intentions, I place my glass on the windowsill.

  “Oh, don’t put it there,” he cries. “It will leave a ring.”

  I pick up the glass. “I’ll put it back in the kitchen, then.”

  “But you can’t go,” he clucks. “We haven’t finished talking about your play.”

  I roll my eyes, but I don’t want to completely offend him. I figure I’ll sit next to him for a moment and then leave.

  I perch gingerly on the side of the bed, as far away from him as possible. “About the play—”

  “Yes, about the play,” he agrees. “What made you want to write it?”

  “Well, I . . .” I fumble for the words but I take too l
ong and Bobby becomes impatient.

  “Hand me that photograph, will you?” And before I can protest, he’s scooted next to me and is pointing at the picture with a manicured finger. “My wife,” he says, followed by a giggle. “Or should I say my ex-wife?”

  “You were married?” I ask as politely as possible, given those alarm bells are now clanging away like a bell tower.

  “For two years. Annalise was her name. She’s French, you see?”

  “Uh-huh.” I peer more closely at the image. Annalise is one of those beauties who looks absolutely insane, with a ridiculous pouty mouth and wild, scorching black eyes.

  “You remind me of her.” Bobby puts his hand on my leg.

  I unceremoniously remove it. “I don’t look a thing like her.”

  “Oh, but you do. To me,” he murmurs. And then, in hideous slow motion, he purses his lips and pushes his face toward mine for a kiss.

  I quickly turn away and wrestle free from his grasping fingers. Ugh. What kind of man gets manicures anyway?

  “Bobby!” I pick up my glass from the floor and start out of the room.

  He follows me into the kitchen, wagging his tail like a chastened puppy. “Don’t go,” he pleads. “There’s nearly a whole bottle of champagne left. You can’t expect me to drink it myself. Besides, it doesn’t keep.”

  The kitchen is tiny, and Bobby has stationed himself in the doorway, blocking my exit.

  “I have a boyfriend,” I say fiercely.

  “He doesn’t have to know.”

  I’m about to flee, when he changes his tack from sly to hurt. “Really, Carrie. It’s going to be very hard to work together if I think you don’t like me.”

  He has to be kidding. But maybe Samantha was right. Doing business with men is tricky. If I reject Bobby, is he going to cancel my play reading? I swallow and try to summon a smile. “I do like you, Bobby. But I have a boyfriend,” I repeat, figuring the emphasis of this fact is probably my best tactic.

  “Who?” he demands.

  “Bernard Singer.”

  Bobby breaks into a glass-shattering peal. “Him?” He moves closer and tries to take my hand. “He’s too old for you.”

  I shake my head in wonder.

  The momentary lull gives Bobby another chance to attack. He wraps his arms around my neck and attempts to mouth me again.

  There’s a kind of tussle, with me trying to maneuver around him and him trying to push me against the sink. Luckily, Bobby not only looks like a butter ball, but has the consistency of one as well. Besides, I’m more desperate. I duck under his outstretched arms and hightail it for the door.

  “Carrie! Carrie,” he cries, clapping his hands as he skitters down the hall after me.

  I reach the door, and pause, breathless. I’m about to tell him what a scumball he is and how I don’t appreciate being taken in under false pretenses—all the while seeing my future crumble before me—when I catch his pained expression.

  “I’m sorry.” He hangs his head like a child. “I hope—”

  “Yes?” I ask, rearranging my hair.

  “I hope this doesn’t mean you hate me. We can still do your reading, yes?”

  I do my best to look down my nose at him. “How can I trust you? After this.”

  “Oh, forget about it,” he says, waving his hands in front of his face as though encased in a swarm of flies. “I didn’t mean it. I’m too forward. Friends?” he asks sheepishly, holding out his hand.

  I straighten my shoulders and take it. Quick as a wink, he’s clutched my hand and is lifting it to his mouth.

  I allow him to kiss it before I jerk it back.

  “What about your play?” he pronounces. “You have to allow me to read it before Thursday. Since you won’t let me kiss you, I need to know what I’m getting into.”

  “I don’t have it. I’ll drop it off tomorrow,” I say hastily. Miranda has it, but I’ll get it from her later.

  “And invite some of your friends to the reading. The pretty ones,” he adds.

  I shake my head and walk out the door. Some men never give up.

  Nor some women. I fan myself in relief as I ride down the elevator. At least I still have my reading. I’ll probably be fighting Bobby off all night, but it seems like a small price to pay for impending fame.

  Chapter Thirty-Four

  “Who is this creep, exactly?” Samantha asks, tearing the top off a pink package of Sweet’N Low and pouring the powdered chemicals into her coffee.

  “He’s some kind of art dealer. He’s the guy with the space. I went to the fashion show there?” I gather the tiny strips of pink paper from the middle of the table, fold them neatly, and wrap them in my napkin. I can’t help it. Those damn leavings from fake sugar packages drive me crazy. Mostly because you can’t go two feet without finding one.

  “The space guy,” Samantha says, musingly.

  “Bobby. Do you know him?” I ask, thinking she must. She knows everyone.

  We’re at the Pink Tea Cup, this very famous restaurant in the West Village. It’s pink all right, with twee wrought-iron chairs and ancient tablecloths printed with cabbage roses. They’re open twenty-four hours, but they only serve breakfast, so if you time it right, you get to see Joey Ramone eating pancakes at five in the afternoon.

  Samantha has left work early, claiming she’s still in pain from the operation. But it can’t be too bad, since she’s managed to make it out of the apartment. “Is he short?” she asks.

  “He had to stand on his tippy-toes when he tried to kiss me.” The memory of Bobby’s attempted assault causes a fresh round of irritation, and I pour way too much sugar into my cup.

  “Bobby Nevil.” She nods. “Everyone knows him. He’s infamous.”

  “For jumping young girls?”

  Samantha makes a face. “That would garner him no notoriety at all.” She lifts her cup and tastes her coffee. “He tried to attack Michelangelo’s David.”

  “The sculpture?” Oh, great. Just my luck. “He’s a criminal?”

  “More like an art revolutionary. He was trying to make a statement about art.”

  “Meaning what? Art sucks?”

  “Who sucks?” Miranda demands, arriving at the table with her knapsack and a black Saks shopping bag slung over her shoulder. She grabs a handful of napkins from the dispenser and mops her brow. “It’s ninety degrees out there.” She waves at the waitress and asks for a glass of ice.

  “Are we talking about sex again?” She looks at Samantha accusingly. “I hope I didn’t come all the way down here for another conversation about Kegel exercises. Which I tried, by the way. They made me feel like a monkey.”

  “Monkeys do Kegel exercises?” I ask, surprised.

  Samantha shakes her head. “You two are hopeless.”

  I sigh. I’d walked away from Bobby’s thinking I could handle his underhanded behavior, but the more I thought about it, the more incensed I became. Was it wrong to assume that when I finally got a break, it would be based on my own merits, as opposed to the random horniness of some old coot? “Bobby tried to jump me,” I inform Miranda.

  “That little thing?” She’s not impressed. “I thought he was gay.”

  “He’s one of those guys no one wants on their team. Gay or straight,” Samantha says.

  “Is that an actual thing?” Miranda asks.

  “They’re called the lost boys of sexual orientation. Come on, guys,” I say. “This is serious.”

  “There was a professor at my school,” Miranda says. “Everyone knew if you slept with him he’d give you an A.”

  I glare at her. “Not helping.”

  “Well, come on, Carrie. This is nothing new. Every bar I’ve worked in has an unspoken rule that if you have sex with the manager, you’ll get the best shifts,” Samantha says. “And every office I’ve worked in—same thing. There’s always some guy coming on to you. And most of them are married.”

  I groan. “And do you—?”

  “Have sex with them? What do
you think, Sparrow?” she asks sharply. “I don’t need to have sex with some guy to get ahead. On the other hand, I’m not ashamed of anything I’ve done. Shame is a useless emotion.”

  Miranda’s face contorts into an expression that signifies she’s about to say something inappropriate. “If that’s true, why won’t you tell Charlie about the endometriosis? If you’re not ashamed, why can’t you be honest?”

  Samantha’s lips curl into a patronizing smile. “My relationship with Charlie is none of your business.”

  “Why do you talk about it all the time, then?” Miranda asks, refusing to back down.

  I put my head in my hands, wondering why we’re all so worked up. It must be the heat. It curdles the brain.

  “So should I have my play reading at Bobby’s or not?” I ask.

  “Of course,” Samantha says. “You can’t let Bobby’s stupid little pass make you question your talents. Then he’ll have won.”

  Miranda has no choice but to agree. “Why should you let that squat little toad define who you are or what you can do?”

  I know they’re right, but for a moment, I feel defeated. By life and the never-ending struggle to make something of it. Why can’t things just be easy?

  “Did you read my play?” I ask Miranda.

  She reddens. And in a voice that’s too high, says, “I meant to. But I was so busy. I promise I’ll read it tonight, okay?”

  “Can’t,” I say sharply. “I need it back. I have to give it to Bobby first thing tomorrow.”

  “Don’t get testy—”

  “I’m not.”

  “It’s right here,” she says, opening her knapsack and riffling through it. She looks inside in confusion, then picks up the shopping bag and dumps the contents onto the table. “It must have gotten mixed up with my flyers.”

  “You took my play to Saks?” I ask, incredulous, as Miranda paws frantically through her papers.